Day 246
I don’t have much time but I wanted to give a quick update on what’s happening. I went for blood work yesterday and the great news is that my white count is now totally normal and my platelets finally started going up a little. However, the platelets were still too low to start the next round of chemo. So they have decided to give me two more weeks to see where I am at that point. When I left the office, I was told I would probably be pulled off the study, which meant I went home and started fantasizing about what my life would be like if it didn’t revolve around chemo. Then they called this morning and said they would most likely keep me on study if the counts were okay. Well, scratch a few plans that I made in the last 24 hours, back to reality. Although I LOVED the idea of not being on chemo anymore, it also scared me because I was looking at this trial as a final kick-in-the-pants to any potential cancer cells. In a way, I am relieved that I might be able to continue. I go in on February 14th, Valentine’s Day, for the final verdict. A lot of the decision will be up to me. I would say I’m going to think about it, but I’m honestly not. I have enjoyed the last few weeks of my life so immensely that I plan to do the same for the next two weeks with no thought of hospitals or blood cells.
I am getting so much stronger, building my energy and coming to so much peace with things that I would like to just continue on this path. Even if I start chemo again, I have a much better idea of what to expect and I feel like I am going into it in a better position than I did the last time.
The funniest thing my dear friend Heather said to me about it today was “stop worrying, you only had a ‘little bit of leukemia’ anyways.” I’m not sure if you all find as much humor in that as I do but it totally made me laugh.
Oh, and I must share the good news that Roseann’s Healing House Open House was a huge success. She had tons of healers and practitioners from all walks of life, some great yoga classes and really delicious food. It was a wonderful opportunity to start talking about how we can bring all of these people together to help cancer patients and those in remission begin healing through alternative therapies. I think she’s going to blog about it and I will share the link as soon as it’s up.
I couldn’t help but think of you yesterday – way back in college I signed up for the marrow donor registry and just sat back and waited. Well, yesterday, completely out of the blue, I got an email that I could be a potential match. Of course, it’s just preliminary so it may not even go anywhere, but it’s a very emotional thing to think about! This is probably even more so because was have a friend whose 17-year-old son was killed in a car accident last weekend along with two other teenagers, so it’s been a very emotional week. Anway, I thought you’d be interested to know – I’ll let you know if it goes anywhere!