Day 21
It’s late, but I’m gonna do this. I’m once again under the cooling blanket and REALLY frustrated because I think this passes the 48 hr. mark that the doctors were talking about. I also noticed that I’m starting to get these blotchy brown spots which is what they noticed a few days ago and I didn’t. So to me, that seems to be getting worse. They said that one of the huge challenges when giving medications to someone with no immune system is that it is much easier for your system to try to reject it. I had another CT scan of my chest and abdomen to double-check what is going on there and further rule out anything like pneumonia. They have checked me for that a few times already. The other thing my nurse mentioned to me is that, and this is awesome news, my white blood cell count took a huge jump this morning. Yeah! But she said that it’s possible my new immune system is trying to fight something off and we can’t figure out what.
I’m focusing on the good news and know that the higher my white cells come up, the better I’ll feel. But I would by lying if I didn’t say I’m a little frustrated with the doctors telling me each day, that “it’s just one or two more days and your stomach will be all better.” I want more than anything for that to feel better.
So I’m not allowed to eat anything and haven’t had any real food for a few days but lying here under the cooling blanket I’ve developed quite a handful of cravings. Trust me, I have no appetite for them now, but as soon as I’m better, here’s the list:
- Claire’s motzah ball soup because she emailed me about it today and I got an instant craving (thanks Claire!)
- Kentucky Fried Chicken (gross I know but Brian and I had it on our first date and it’s just darn good)
- A bacon cheeseburger
- An enormous fruit salad, all for me
- An ice cream cone outside
- An ice cream shake
- Fresh lobster with loads of butter
- Crab cakes
- Turkey sub from Subway
There are so many more things, but I thought I would start with that. It’s good to have things to focus on 
You’re making me hungry.. I was going to suggest rice pudding for you, but your list is so much better. I will join you for the fresh lobster and fruit salad! mmm.. focus on the food that lies ahead!!
Jessica,
Sounds shitty and I know that doesn’t even begin to describe it, but your clarity of mind and spirit is impressive and inspirational. Sorry for not keeping up with you more the last few weeks, but I’ve been reading this blog late at night and going to bed with you in my thoughts. Speaking of cravings, I’m going to seek out some guy today who has a cheese shop (supposedly one of the most impressive in France) and 3 caves nearby the shop to age cheese.
Love you. Kenny
I dedicated my breakfast to you- avocado and grapfruit salad. Check out my site for a photo.
Sorry, here’s the link
http://smallbitesbigworld.tumblr.com/
Sadly, if you had an ice cream cone outside right now, it would not last long enough for you to actually eat it. While you’ve been in the hospital, Baltimore seems to have shifted towards the equator.
Hi Jess,
No doubt, it is not easy to find encouragment when your body rebells and doesn’t want to listen to you or to anyone else. Waiting is so hard, but you will get there, you absolutely will. You are in my and so many others’ prayers.
It is totally in character that that cheapskate Brian would take you to KFC on a first date. Did he make you split the check too?
Chip
I don’t remember him making me pay for it but he did spit his corn on the cob all of my face because he was trying to talk with his mouth full. You could tell I had really high standards
Wow–now I actually AM worried…that sounds like a craving list I could have written (and would certainly join you for!). Heck, I’ve probably served most of it to Carlie under the guise of a well-balanced diet (anything but Captain Crunch constitutes a well-balanced diet to us). Let me know when Thursday rolls around if you’re up to anything at all and I’ll happily bring it with me (and then share it with you, I’m sure–kind of like those lemon things I brought “for you” the last time). Maybe scones? Hang in!!
I like your list. I didn’t see any alcohol on that list. =) That said, I don’t really drink but I’ve been told by those who do that life is much easier to handle. lol I didn’t bother to ask them how much alcohol you actually have to drink in order for that to happen though. Oh well.
I hope today has been a better day. I never really liked it when the doctor would answer me with something like “don’t worry it won’t be too long now.” I think my timeline and my doctors timeline didn’t really match up very well.
I’ve been thinking about you and thinking positive thoughts!
Bite me Chip. You too Jess. I think you have exaggerated and twisted the truth in this story for the last time.
For the record, we were going hiking. Before we went, I asked Jess if she wanted anything to eat. She said no. So to be quick I stopped by KFC across from Towson University and grabbed one of their value meals. So not to show Jess that I was irresponsible, we went in and sat at a table (trying to eat and drive a stick and yes – for those who have been in the car with me… I know how silly that sounds). I offered to buy her something again, she refused. I ordered, sat down and ate while she picked at my food… nibbling away. *NOTE: a pet peeve of mine – I hate when girls do this.
As we sat there, I bit into the corn on the cob and one of the kernels (filled with preservatives I am sure) squirted and hit her in the cheek. I apologized, wiped her cheek, I finished and we left. We then went for a hike and swim at Loch Raven.
So there!
Hey Chip, just in case you didn’t hear it the first time….. bite me!