Day 17
It is really hard for me to blog tonight. I am in the bottom of the bottom and I have been running high fevers (103) on and off all day. I finally got my matching platelets but they gave it to me in the midst of one of my fevers and it ended up dropping my count to 3,000 – not good. They have prepped me for platelets again but as we started my fever started to climb and now we are waiting for it to come down because we don’t want to waste another bag and risk dropping to virtually zero. This is the part where I really have to push myself mentally. I am so happy and relieved that my bone marrow came back clear but physically I can barely get out of bed because I’m so cold. As well, I have had a lot of dizziness because my blood pressure is low and I am dehydrated from the sweats and not being able to eat very much. The good news is that my stomach is feeling a lot better. They are also giving me lots of fluids for the dehydration. If I could just kick the fevers and get my platelets back up, I’ll be in the good shape. The docs keep telling me it will happen in time. Typically this low phase lasts about a week so by next Monday I should start to see some recovery.
I haven’t been taking many phone calls or visitors (but Jim, I REALLY didn’t get any of your calls!). I feel so yucky that I’ve just been laying in bed and sleeping. I’ve tried to do a little yoga and meditation but the physical symptoms are making things difficult.
Like my nurse said, this is the part where I have to bring the Supergirl on. I have to focus on the other side and not get caught up in the things that are happening. All in all, everything is looking very good – they test me daily for all kinds of infections and viruses and everything comes back clear. That is good news. It will get better and I just have to take care of myself and let that happen.
My triathalon nurse, RoseAnn, ran a half iron-man triathalon over the weekend and wrote a really beautiful piece about how I was part of her inspiration for the race. If you want to read her blog, here’s the link. I was so touched.
My dad brought me scones today and I was able to keep one down – yeah! My cousin Amy, who is truly a sister to me, sent me a great care package with Mad Libs, a Superwoman comic, Pride and Prejudice as a graphic novel, lots of hats and scarves and an inspirational decoration for my room. Amy, I’ll call you as soon as I get a chance tomorrow. I also have to thank Steph for a great pair of slippers and scarves that she brought yesterday.
My temp just came back at 103.7 so I think I’m about to swarmed with ice packs. I won’t lie, this stuff scares the crap out of me but I have to have faith in the doctors and know I will get through this.
1:15 am Update:
This is me with ice packs all over. We finally got my fever down and we’re trying the platelets again. It’s going to work this time! I’m feeling MUCH better.